Let’s Get This Journey Started! April 24, 08

My screename here is “Diamond in the Rough.” Most people know me as Lakendra but lately, I’ve been experiencing a strong identifcation with Queen Esther from the Bible.

 

Granted, I don’t feel much like a queen and certainly don’t consider myself one. But I have been feeling lately that God (if He hasn’t already) is about to change my name.

 

Name changes from the Lord are prevalent throughout the Old Testament, usually done as a way to illustrate a person’s change of character, and since I feel that God is in the process of doing a significant character change in my life, I wanted to begin recording the process. Why I’ve chosen to do it online, I don’t really know, except that perhaps my journey in Christ might help someone who is on a spiritual journey of their own.

 

So I thought to myself, “If God changed my name to a Biblical one, what would it be?” The answer came back…Esther…because in God’s sight, even though I have trouble seeing it and I certainly don’t feel it, I am a queen!

 

Every human female in God’s creation is a queen. She has simply been blinded to the fact by the enemy. Circumstances (and people) can make you forget you have worth in God’s sight. At least that’s what happened to me. Now I want to take back what the devil stole from me and maybe help others in the process to do the same.

 

The key word here is “process.”…I am on a journey in which though I fully understand that I am not who I was, I also recognize that I am not yet all that I could be. This blog will hopefully serve as a tool from which I can gauge my spiritual and physical metamorphosis. If other people are interested, great. If no one ever reads what I write, that’s okay too. Keeping a public online journal is actually not my preferred style of exhibitionism. I’m a performer–someone who likes to sing and act and hide in plain sight behind characters on a stage. But God has a way of taking all the SELF out of performing when it becomes for His glory. And that is the main reason I’m feeling led to do this.

 

Now, I would be the first to tell you that I lead a pretty boring life, certainly nothing that would be worth writing about online. But while testifying for Christ may not always seem the most glamorous of gigs, it is important. And there are actually some things going on with me right now.

 

For this first post, however, I will leave for another time what is happening with me and use this last sentence as a segway into the next post, which explains why I think I am a diamond in the rough…